chu 2, sad?

today,
chu 2,
wake up early in the morning because the noisance of the 3 little fellows,
*as usual*
i slept at 3smtg this morning,
but have to wake up at 8smtg.
early morning,
sis in law receive a called from her bro,
is a bad new,
her father was passed away...
so she leave down her 3 children for us to take care...
honestly,
start from the moment,
i HATE children.
i hate when they're crying.
i hate when they're are rude.
they're so noisy !
look at others nephew or niece,
they are so intelligent and cute,
but why my own niece and nephew can be so NAUGHTHY????
slowly i found out the reason,
they are spoiled by my father,
who always said right when they did something wrong,
who always protect them when my sis in law or my bro trying to punish them.
i feel so lucky when i was small,
he is not here...
this new year was suck~!
i'll not hunger for the new year after this,
i'm unhappy~!
and totally down.
i promised myself,
i'll not come back before Sap Chap Meh,
i'll not help them to clean up the house, prepared all the mise en place anymore,
because at last,
what i get is SCOLD!!!
nobody appreciate,
why still i keep helping them?
though they're my family members,
but how they treat me?
they never care my feeling!
 *especially the one i just quarrel with~! *
they expect what i do is a MUST~!
i'm the one who clean the house,
why i dont have the right to stop them not to mess up the house???????
if sis in law's father was not passed away today,
i'm sure that i will leave this home as early as possible!
let them know how the feels like when there is no one help them to do everything!
little by little,
i don't feel like this is a home anymore...
won't feel like want to come back here every year.
i'll still earn money to support them,
but there is no other reasons that can affect me to come back.
im completely sad and down when i'm writing this post.
who cares?
nobody know im sad.