Dear blog,
You are the good listener ever!
There is no one could better than you.
You keep what i wrote in here,
You record it,
You listen to me.
Unfortunately, you couldnt give me any suggestion or even comfort me.
But i found is really good sometime.
Cause i just need someone really can listen to me,
Quietly...
I may be just cry in front you.
And not in front of others.
They thought im stronger than anyone else,
But i wasnt.
I will feel weak for sometime,
That sometime only can accompany by you,
How sad it was?
Now is the right time for me to have night drive at outside.
Im struggling!
Dear bed, sorry im leaving for few hours cause im not going to sleep now,
Sorry my body and my heart, morrow both of you have to stand strong cause i will be tired while working.
Night ppl, night world, and gd. Morning, veeky.

felt good after come back from my 5 days annual leave.
is so energetic and fresh!
but what i really don't like is,
my station is so hot and limited,
i'm kinda stick with the wall.
/.\
finally,
i have the chance to go where i used to go!
haahaha!
but with accompany by two fellows...
feel so weird...
as im not driving my own car,
and im not alone...
=.=
something happened in the evening,
which really cause me almost collapse.
mind torturing till the max.
what i really want,
what i really need,
is just PEACE!
please give me back my peaceful life.
and wait,
i neeeed BEER~
=D
faster come back my dear sister in law,
i need youuuuuuu crazily~~~~
<3 p="p">5 more days to year 2013,
advance Happy New Year to me and my friends and,
wish that everything go smoothly in 2013
no more upset, worry and troubles

*END*

今天是平安夜，
那么快的，2013年要到了，
就只剩下一个星期。
但我好像白活了2012年？
好多好多事情不由得我来说，
好多事情，
是让多少人误会，
还好只有真正的人， 真正的朋友明白我。
我永远都败给心太软。。。
我嘴硬到底是有什么用？
我心不硬！
导致今天一切的一切。
算了。
平安夜我觉得温馨，
所以暂时不写这些。
好久好久，
我都没有一个人去走走了。
好久好久，
我都没有像这几天一样，
赖在家里，
把speaker开得大大声的不去想一切事情。
好久好久，
我都没有开车去到远远，就自己一个人。
这些好久好久，
我都忘了有多久！
做一个决定到底需要多少时间？
要多少勇气?
有些事情没有必要让人知道；
没人能帮得上忙。
就像我现在一样，
没人能帮得了我。
林维琪啊，
你到底在做什么。。。=。=

did i made the wrong decision to stayed in alor setar?
recently there is quite a lot of things bothering me,
i cant take it all!
until i fall sick and stay at home.
i don't wanna go out,
as my working life is so sucks since they renovate the center.
the place is insufficient for me and my colleagues.
everyday im tired of hearing my new staff is calling me for this, calling me for that,
even i took my 5 days of annual leave just intend to stay at home,
but my phone never stop ringing?
my girl,
cant you just be a little bit of independent?
im tired,
physically and mentally.
second strike was what i've been told last night,
i couldn't even control how ppls think about me and talk about me.
just that,
sorry to mentioned,
that bitch is cross my baseline!
what you said,
what you mean,
what you trying to do,
IS OVER!
you know,
extremely over.
if i have a chance to repay it for you,
Yay or Nay?
of course Yay!
im certainly will stuck a banana into your mouth and ask you to shut up your fucking mouth.
you're hurting my friends and me!
and a million thanks to those who told me the story last night,
at least,
i know how was the old lady describing me and with her stupidity opinion.
thanks a lot!
im just too tired, very tired of guessing how she gossip about me.
because her mouth never stop talking about others.
and im falling apart.