climb 57 floors

i had done a mistake.
i lost his locker keys.
why?
he forgot to bring his locker keys,
then ask me to take for him.
so i take the key,
and decide to throw out from the window intent to let him catch the key,
unfortunately,
i accidentally drop the key from 24th floor to somewhere else...
+.+
i get shocked and run out from the room.
guess what,
im being blame by him.
"你没有吃饭啊？不会丢出力一点阿？!!"
gosh~!!
i felt angry and i got no time to quarrel with him,
just promised him i'll find his key back.
then i go down to 5th floor,
im not taking any elevator.
i go down floor by floor.
because the elevator is too slow.
from 24th floor to 5th floor,
i found the underbrush at 5th floor,
but i cant found it.
then from 5th floor go up floor by floor find the key until 20th floor.
but still,
i cant found the key.
again,
from 20th floor,
go down to 5th floor...
floor by floor,
i find it very carefully...
and,
im fail to find the key...
i stand at the underbrush look for the key,
one bangladesh come near me,
he ask me anything?
i said i lost my key at here.
he help me to find...
thank you very much although still cannot find it..
i go up again floor by floor,
until i reach 14th floor,
i saw a key is lying on the wall that near the window.
but im not sure is it Darbing's key or not,
so i plan to climb the window with iron grating to take the key.
but before that,
i inform the master of the unit first...
i felt sorry to him because he is a handicap,
he cant walk,
but he is willing to help me..
i said i want to climb the grate and take the key,
but he stop me.
he said he will borrow me a long iron stick to pull the key down to 5th floor,
and i can take at there instead of climbing the window.
when i heard it,
i feel touching,
again,
thank you very much.
now i bring back the key,
though i don't know is belongs to Darbing or not,
but atleast,
i already try all my best to find the key floor by floor...
last,
is that key important than my feeling?
don't even care my feeling and straight away blame on me when i lost my control accidentally drop it.
ya,
maybe im not throw it with full of my strength,
but if i throw it full of my strength,
it will fly to somewhere else also.
it isn't my ownself problem,
but is 2 person problem.
im not pass the buck,
but think for me,
am i wrong?
why don't you yourself go in and take the key?
why never stop me from throwing the key out of the window?
why never see carefully where the key drop? then when im asking, you tell me you don't know???
im wrong maybe,
but you're right too???
lost the key,
you may compensate to HR,
or duplicate another new one,
instead of all blame it on me and give me some harsh words.
im persist unreasonably,  but im sorry~! =[

im still alive

i still alive...
im so happy~
+.+
almost torturing until die because i had started my diet plan...
well,
is not FUNNY for me.
im so tough~!
xD
the first time i can adapt all the vegetables smell..
is so....ewhh~
X_X
im progressing the fastest diet plan,
so i'll do whatever things to slim down fast no matter is what method!
i'll used it all~!
=]
3 months for me to finished this plan~!
i know,
i hope i can do it!
^^
song recommend,
"Broken Angel by Arash"
Broken angel
is an awesome song,
from the very begining,
i hate this song because of Darbing keep playing this song...
+.+
but then he explain to me the meaning of the song,
the man die,
the girl had found a new partner,
but she never 4get her man which had die,
come to the last,
she going to suicide,
fortunately her new partner had save her life...
the soul of the man is beside her but she cant feel him...
at last,
he leave her...
=]
nice song~!
curious that is it this song is come from Malaysia?
because of the car's number plate the woman driving to the mountain~!
hmmmm......

a day with lovely friends

yesterday hanging out with peng, sinxi, callie, jazzrel and thamjian...
im so so so happy with friends around me.
=D
but....
Queensbay Mall again...
omg...
is a nightmare...
because when Valentine Day,
date with Darbing more than 6 hours at there.
+.+
the only happy thing in QBM is chatting with sinxi at the Information counter and taking picture with peng~<3
=]
after QBM,
5 of us departed to Hard Rock Hotel.
^^
feel glad that most of them still remember me,
although is 1 and half year after from training~
xD
meet jiaying in the merchandise shop~
awhh...
she become a little bit plump...
>.<
peng and me told her something about our dream...
i really hope that i can did it,
im trying so hard now~!
just hope that i can do whatever i want to do...
i changed my target again...
in fact,
i really don't know what i'm looking for...
is so complicated~!
my life...
haiz~

 a day with spec because of eyes infection, a spec that is not belongs to me~ xD

our Valentine day

Valentine Day is going to end soon after 50 minutes...
=]
today i'm so happy.
he give me the whole day time.
we spend our day at Queensbay Mall...
1smtg we reach there,
going to Dome for our lunch,
then is movie's time.
haha~!
all wells, end wells,
nice movie,
laugh out loud~!
^^
after the movie,
we have a walk in the mall~
this is the first time we celebrate our Valentine together,
because last year Valentine is on the CNY first day,
>.<
haha~!
never mind,
as long as today we enjoy our day,
then is more than enough...
we spent 6 hour++ at there~
wow~!
really first time...
=D
he buy me a bear+ chocolate Valentine gift for me~!
thank you very muchii~
although i did not buy anything for you,
but i give you my HEART...
=]
Happy Valentine Day, Darbing

mum, i love u

as my wish,
i'm in penang.
come back this early morning...
but guess what,
i miss my HOME now,
i started to miss my bed,
hot shower, mum's cooking and the air-cond...
i miss my mum the most...
don't know why...
the day before i back to penang,
she is like not willing to let me come back,
asking me whether can i back on Saturday or Sunday?
hmmm...
i don't understand...
maybe she need someone to help her in the housework?
or she need someone to accompany her?
because brother and his family will go back Singapore on tomorrow.
sorry mum,
i just cannot stand the environment and noisiest when all the children are there...
forgive me.
i cannot sleep well when very early in the morning,
the children cry and cry,
shout and shout at the living room.
i'm so tired.
believe me,
i love you and the family.
=]
i want to learn to become a successful person between this few days...
i'll start go interview my job after 20th of Feb.
so still have 10 days for me to think about my future...
i hope i'll can be the one who bring good life to family and myself too.
till here,
bye~
lastly,
mum,
though i always quarrel with you,
though my education is the lowest compare with 3 other brothers,
maybe for you,
im the most bad and rebelled child among 4 of us,
in your eyes,
i behave like a big children,
but no matter how you think of me,
i'll always love you~
=D
i always think for your future,
when you're old,
the time when you're not capable to take care yourself,
who will take care of you?
i'm sure,
i'll take care of you like you take care of me when i was small.
nothing can remunerate for you,
but i use my time,
to repay you when you're old,
until the end of your life...
^^
i write it,
and i mean it...
now is my turn to work and raise you...
the time i earn my own money,
the time you resigned and travel to all around the world...
=]
i promised...

sleepless night

sis in law's father had funeralled this morning,
time flies,
5 days ago he past away,
and now is 5 days after...
nothing changed,
just the CNY will end up very soon...
=[
my parents had go back to their job!
i'll leave alor star soon for my career life...
in fact,
i'm a little bit of loss,
may be new environment,
new peoples and new life?
hope that my decision don't lead me to hell...
>.<
is sleepless night again,
thats why i write this post.
i don't have blanket with me,
how to sleep in the cold air temperature?
i'm sleep on the strange bed,
still not get used to it,
this is another reason why i cannot sleep well too...
T^T
haiz...
3 days,
i leave him for 3 days ady,
so miss him...
=']
every time before i sleep,
i'll think of him,
i'll miss him...
then slowly...
i get into my dream....
=)
he is my love,
the only one that can makes me think of him before i sleep...
:)
i love u...

wonderful day

yesterday was so released+ crazy+ happiness+ joyful day~
im super duper happy...
wake up 8 in the morning,
after taking bath,
then departed to Darbing house~!
=]
awhh...
so many days did not meet him,
i miss him like crazy...
his mom is preparing the tomyam steamboat...
*fishballs~~*
xD
i like it~!
beside this,
i still received the BIG ang pau from his 2 grandma and his parent...
thank you very much,
but still i feel that i should not take the ang pau...
don't know why...
at Darbing house,
i feel so released and enjoy,
at least i wont keep the unhappy in mind...
i'm so happy when i play with to-v,
talk to Darbing and laughing!
i totally forgot how sad i felt in the last night!
=D
this is me...
happy easily, forget easily~!
i won't always keep myself in down mood.
time's up,
go back home at 4pm....
>.<
time flies~
is time to leave Darbing again.
the unwillingness is high till the max when i sit inside the car and said bye bye to him....
T.T
“bye bye Darbing =]"
but my face expression actually is like this, =[
haiz...
never mind,
i think i'll meet him soon~!
=]
hang out again at night,
to meet with Khaisin & Chewshen at Rock Cafe~!
hahaha~!!!
we are so crazy and mad~!
well,
we don't care how other peoples look at us,
just keep doing the stupid face expression when we taking photos...
oh my god...

*especially chewshen & me*
>.<
hope there is nobody know me...
xD
they bring me back to the memory of secondary school...
happy, naughty and carefree~
we talk as we like,
laugh as nobody business,
this is us...
but we still left 1 sister,
the Choo Chi Sien!
>.>
i miss them so much...
is been 3 years ++ we didn't meet with each others.
however,
we are still maintain the craziness like before...
x)
9smtg,
Khaisin gonna to leave us because she will going back today,
so chewshen and me change to other place,
second round,
alor star mall Georgetown Cafe...
keep taking the madness photos~
huahahaha~
but we extract some times to talk about a jerk...
a jerk who had LOVE chewshen so much before,
and after break,
he become a beast~!
luckily she break with him on time...
if not,
she will regret the whole life..
we chat till 11 smtg,
then i send her back...
is a wonderful day for me,
thanks Darbing and his family,
thanks my sister Khaisin & Chewshen

chu 2, sad?

today,
chu 2,
wake up early in the morning because the noisance of the 3 little fellows,
*as usual*
i slept at 3smtg this morning,
but have to wake up at 8smtg.
early morning,
sis in law receive a called from her bro,
is a bad new,
her father was passed away...
so she leave down her 3 children for us to take care...
honestly,
start from the moment,
i HATE children.
i hate when they're crying.
i hate when they're are rude.
they're so noisy !
look at others nephew or niece,
they are so intelligent and cute,
but why my own niece and nephew can be so NAUGHTHY????
slowly i found out the reason,
they are spoiled by my father,
who always said right when they did something wrong,
who always protect them when my sis in law or my bro trying to punish them.
i feel so lucky when i was small,
he is not here...
this new year was suck~!
i'll not hunger for the new year after this,
i'm unhappy~!
and totally down.
i promised myself,
i'll not come back before Sap Chap Meh,
i'll not help them to clean up the house, prepared all the mise en place anymore,
because at last,
what i get is SCOLD!!!
nobody appreciate,
why still i keep helping them?
though they're my family members,
but how they treat me?
they never care my feeling!
 *especially the one i just quarrel with~! *
they expect what i do is a MUST~!
i'm the one who clean the house,
why i dont have the right to stop them not to mess up the house???????
if sis in law's father was not passed away today,
i'm sure that i will leave this home as early as possible!
let them know how the feels like when there is no one help them to do everything!
little by little,
i don't feel like this is a home anymore...
won't feel like want to come back here every year.
i'll still earn money to support them,
but there is no other reasons that can affect me to come back.
im completely sad and down when i'm writing this post.
who cares?
nobody know im sad.

sleepless night

now is late at night,
15 more minutes to 3a.m,
why am i still updating my blog here?
i'm still awake...
i'm waiting for my eldest bro and sis in law to come back and take care of their children...
seriously,
i'm tired+ sleepy+ headache+ hungry now...
T^T
i can feel my body temperature is getting high,
feel like want to vomit...
i think im gonna fever soon...
signed in the facebook,
Darbing is off...
oh ya...
he off at 11 smtg,
i forgot ady...
thought still can chat with him.
i don't know how will i looks like later...
maybe panda eyes with new cloths?
panda eyes with a lotsa make up?
haiz~
i thought i can rest well today,
but i ain't no rest at all...
=[
*sigh*
just now mom received a called from 3rd aunty,
she said not coming back to grandpa house later on...
hmmm~T^T
why???
i miss you all...
feel like this year is not a good  year for me...
i'm not happy with this year CNY...
=(
or i just over expected on it?
Darbing,
i miss you so much,
a lotsa things want to share with you...
how i wish i can get a big hug from you now...
T_T
at last,
4got to tell you,
3rd of Feb,
our 1.3 anniversary,
=]
happy anniversary and happy new year...
i love you...

fussy

today quite a busy day...
now only i realize that tomorrow is Sap Chap Meh...
evening was helping mom to prepare all the mise en place...
cutting the vegetables,
peeling the fruits and etc...
i think im belongs to the fussy category.
*i mean my characteristic*
i felt very annoying when my niece and nephew is talking loudly, shouting or even crying...
a force like pushing me to wave up my hand and slap on their face...
cruel isn't it?
but they're mean more cruel to me...
-crying,
-rude,
-throw the toys at the floor and not mean to clean it up,
i can't stand it anymore~!
that is why i keep shout and shout on them everyday and i become grumpy now...
bro don't understand why i keep complaining~!
yes,
im keep complaining everyday.
do you think that everyday maintain the house in clean situation is very easy by nobody helping me?
do you think that i have more and more energy to keep repeating mend all the toys and rubbish after they throwing everywhere????
sorry,
im not robot...
if you wanna try it,
im not mind to just sitting at there and tell you where you need to clean and what should you do.
you're just came back,
not more than 2 days,
how would you experience or know my feeling?
it is sucks...~!
im willing to do all the housework,
but nobody appreciate it then how???
after i wiping the floor,
then the niece and nephew sitting there eating ice cream,
or drinking the sweet things,
make the floor dirty and messy again,
who gonna to help me clean it up???
TALK tend to more EASY than DO~!
im not fussing,
but at least appreciate what i had done!
listen to my complain and understand my feeling,
find out why im keep complaining!
not blaming me!
i don't understand why every year's new year eve,
i'll quarrel with either mom or bro,
maybe busy lead us to this...
and maybe we don't have the patience too...
oh ya,
she is in Malaysia now,
and consigned bro to bring back my present.
here to thanks her.

 coach leather bag, thanks~!