wish to have a new life in 2011

today is 31st December~
is the last day of 2010...
a little bit of unwilling...
=[
but we have to look ahead...
maybe,
2011 will be more better?
said Yes to myself...
^^
my mission, vision, and goal...
=D
i hope to have a successful life in future...
and 2011, 2012, 2013.....blah blah blah~
i will still <3 him~
xD
today is a busy day....
gosh~'
i think we all have to work over time~
will going to work at 12pm
!@#$
*lazy*
but 2 more days to go,
then i will be free~
^.^
what should i said?
they offer me a permanent staff at there,
should i go for it?
they offer me to work as cashier at the cafe,
should i go for it?
>.<"
but i really not interesting in hotel life...~
duhh~
just take this as consideration...
till here then,
prepare for later work~
bye bye~

highly regard

2011 is coming soon~!!!
>.<
21 years old soon...
good thing?
bad thing?
don't know yet...
3 days more...
then i will fly like a G-6~!
=D
maybe will extend my working day,
hahaha~!!!
yesterday praised by the manager~!
^^
so happy~!
first time I regard highly by the Outlet~
anyone there does not appreciate what we had done to them,
but finally,
the manager saw it,
the supervisor, Kak Ina saw it...
im so so so happy~!
yesterday was in good mood though the guests really piss me off.
one word,
they eat like a PIG...
drink like a BULL...
=P
an indian female guest:" hello excuse me, warm water pls~! HELLO excuse me, warm water pls~! hello excuse me, warm water pls~!!!!"
lol,
funny right?
im not deaf,
first time she asking for it,
i answer her, "yes"
keep on repeating the same thing,
and finally i said, " I know~!!!" with a  high volume of my voice.
now she keep her mouth shut~!
xD
im not bringing her a warm water but hot water...
when i pour into her glass,
her colleagues is like "oh my god, what she trying to do? this is hot water"
haha~!
i can read their mind through their facial expression.
well,
just to scare her,
i pour the half glass of hot water,
then pour another half of cold water into her glassware~
im not rude,
just she trying to piss me off~!
this is why i do this to her~
xD
before i back,
Kak Ina asking me why don't i become a permanent staff at there,
i said sorry, im not interesting in hotel life...
hmm~
she looks like very disappointed then...
but really sorry..
i really don't feel like im suitable in the hotel life...
this is what i can said...

christmas is over

Merry christmas to everyone~!
wooootttts~
is over..
this year christmas was so dull...
did not celebrate with him,
just work through it...
i buy him a present,
which is Body Glove wallet,
i saw his wallet,
hmm...
is time to changed a new one,
thats why i buy him a wallet.
and what should i present him on his birthday?
is already in my mind.
oh ya,
make him a video also...
but he not yet see...
no time?
*i don't know...*
 maybe he is not interesting~
>.<"
skip this...

this few day very tired.
though work as noon shift,
but have to go there at 12pm,
to help them all....
!@#$
every night sleep at 12smtg,
but the next day have to wake up early...
+.+
need rest seriously....
haiz....

busy life

first of all,
this is my 300th post~
=]
wish everyone have a great and Häppy Wìntér Sölstìcé ♥
^^
dumpling~<3<3
too bad i have no chance to eat...
>.<
just came back from work~
today totally piss off because of the supervisor who name Christine...
*girl's name*
while im busying with my thing,
keep talking with me,
want me to do this,
want me to do that~
*broken english* xD
"CAN YOU PLEASE SHUT UP ???"
the section cant even fix in any guest ady,
keep bring the guest to the section.
we not enough time to clear ok????
use your brain to think and not your ass~!
o0o
arranged me to work at the section which im not belongs to.
after i helped the person clear and set all the things,
then put me back to my section again.
WTF~!
no one help me to clear and set the tables.
countless of  FUCK YOU appear in my mind at the moment.
if there is nobody help me to clear my section,
please don't ask me go out to help others~!
this is the reasons why hotelier have to study first only can work in the hotel.
Mr. Christine, do you know what is management?
making sure the operation run smooth not just only need skills,
but management oso k???
count down for my leaving day~!
i said i wanna end up my busy life and leave the hell soon~

10 days to go....
after 10 days,
i will fly like a G-6~!
xD
p/s: just finished reading someone blog~ *touching* and i LOVE YOU

barbarion o0o

oh~
is weekend again...
i think most of the hotelier don't like weekend.
is our busy day...
last night serve the famous laptop brand,- DexX group.
well,
dear people,
we are not the low class server,
please respect us~!
don't think that you pay a little bit of fu*king money and can ended up with throwing rubbish on the floor and order people to serve you wine or beer,
sorry,
do you know what is the meaning of buffet?
is serving yourself.
this is what buffet mean.
and we're NOT suppose to serve you or bring you any COFFEE or TEA.
take yourself~! *this is what appear in my mind when i heard them asking one of my friend*
you guy are stupid + idiot + moron...
and they don't even know how to use the setting on the table.
all the cutleries are in front of them,
but then they taking their colleague's cutleries...
*thumb up*
so clever...
don't have the table knowledge at all...
while playing the game,
behave like a primitive.
shout out loud like nobody business and complaint by the in- house guest.
the supervisor had warn them,
but how?
they keep making noise....
awhhh...
a group of barbarion...
our buffet line close at 10.30p.m
suppose our setting have to be done by 11.00p.m
because of them,
11smtg still sit at there,
we can't do anything...
work over time is the choice.
ya...
we go back "early"
12 smtg, consider as A.M.
and i sprain my foot,
damn fu*king angry ...
just feel like killing them.
sorry i lost my professional attitude due to this kind of guest,
i never smile to them last night,
except one or two of them.
people,
hope you all don't come back again,
if not,
sure i will put some salt in your drink for you.
xD

*the special drink*

good mood

im back~
almost 3 days didnt post blog ady~
first of all,
i had get used to the hotel life...
and seriously,
except our so called "goofy" auntie,-the Rose,
everyone at there is nice...^^
noon shift for one whole week~
>.<"
very tired....
every night sleep at 12smtg....
i'll old soon~
wake up this morning,
i <3 the weather~
i can feel the Chinese New Year is around the corner.
the 春风 ~
so nice and relax...
=]
well,
stop here,
ntg to write...

back to EnO again

dear bloggie,
i go back to work at EnO hotel again...
why?
because i feel so shameful and regret.
what i promised to Darbing i just forget in a moment while im down in 1st day working.
im irresponsible.
im still capricious.
sorry Darbing.
and i feel so sorry to him~
finally i understand,
his happy is more important than myself do...
feel so sorry to the supervisor too~
because he just finished arranging our schedules,
then we tell him we want resigned...
*sigh*
it would not happen again.
i promised myself,
-everything is hard and tough when we start to do or work it out, we must keep it as naturally, every successful person experienced this level too. The most important thing is, DO NOT GIVE UP =]
-do not care whether is use by other person, learn it from the work they giving out.
^^
thats why i go back to work on yesterday,
and i feel HAPPY and released....
at least,
i wont feel unhappy or shameful anymore...
now,
i can stand on hard and work hard~
^^

bye bye EnO

soooo~tired...
yes,
i had been working in EnO hotel for only 1 day,
then i give up.
why?
-because i do not like the way they manage the staff,
-the environment.
how would you feel,
when you are a new comer go in without any briefing, introduction of members and DO NOT KNOW WHERE TO GO FOR HOT WATER OR TAKE ORDER OR DO NOT KNOW THE STYLE OF SET UP A TABLE?
feel disappointed right?
and the very first day,
we know nothing,
then the supervisor give us a section to handle.
how could we make it with a blank minded?
where is the hot water? which cutleries should i put on the table? where should i put the glassware?
first time i feel so helpless.
and where is the experienced staff supposed to teach us all those things?
oh ya,
eat, drink and press mobile phone at the backlane.
pay money for this useless staff,
totally wasted.
we need her help to clean all the dirty plates to the backlane so that we don't have to leave our section and wait,
there is no one help us to take care our sections.
the management goes like this...
i cant imagine that this is the management of a 5 ***** hotel.
finished here then.
don't want to write some more.
just don't understand why...
haiz~
unemployment again~

woohoo~! EnO hotel, im coming...=]

finally and finally,
i get a job~!
haha~
^^
working in EnO hotel as casual worker.
*service crew*
the offer is so good~!
i can get my salary every week.
which means that,
i no need to worry my pocket no $$$...
xD
my working life will start on tomorrow...
=]
noon shift,
3pm-11pm
wow~!
high occupancy,
we all will be busy then~
my life will go back to training that time.
>.<"
hmmm~
Darbing worry that i cannot handle it,
and he said,
EnO is not same like Hard Rock hotel.
awhhh~Darbing,
you're look down on me...
when im training in Hard Rock,
the starz diner just can fix in 250++ guests only,
but guess what,
almost every days the pax is more than 500...
how can we handle it?
the turn over rate is very high,
but then just 4 of us is working.
so how?
we look over each other stations,
and once the guest finish their meal,
we quickly clear the plate and move it to backlane.
4 ppls,
in charge in clearing, set up, wipe cutleries*shortage of cutleries*, clean the floor and etc.
i assumed that,
this condition is the most busy in my life.
so i had prepared for tomorrow,
the challenging work.
=]
no more fear,
no more tear~!
^.^
something make me worry is the people at there.
new environment, new people and new style~!
hope everything go smooth.
oh ya,
one more thing,
i don't have black shoes~
T^T
and i don't want to waste money for the shoes just for wearing 2 months...
help~
>.<"

hard rock *past tense*

im back to penang again...
and i,
back to my frustrated life again...
=[
but,
is happy that i can see Darbing...
^^
mom always want me to go back to hometown because i still cant get any job at here.
mom,
you not understand that,
i mind sit at home and got nothing to do.
i don't want my life become dull and always sit at home.
i will become lazy over a time.
Darbing suggest me go to EnO hotel for casual worker~
hahaha~!
Rm5 per hour,
*not bad loorrr~~~*
tomorrow will walk in for interview
=]
just now click in Ilyn profile...
saw a lot of hard rockerz's photos...
well,
now only i realize,
i miss hard rock,
i miss all the hard rocker.
-i miss ai sze jie, *supervisor from Pizzeria*
-i miss Mr. Ho Dan Dee *F&B manager*
-i miss Mike, *senior of F&B service crew*
-i miss Irene Wong, *housekeeping manager*

-i miss Mr Tan Hock Khiam *banquet manager*
-i miss ah Khun *the butcher*
-i miss ah chong *cold kitchen chef*
-i miss chef joe *pizzeria's chef*
-i miss Veno, *the bartender of pizzeria and lobby lounge*
-i miss Haw Yuen *the siao kia from room service crew*
-i miss Wen Jia *pizzeria's chef*
-i miss Joshua *the assistant F&B manager* sex on the beach~@.@ haha~!
omg....
and so on and so on....
i miss all of them...
=']
how are you all?
still remember me?
hope you all doing well there...

祭拜姑丈，婚纱照，自作ｖｉｄｅｏ

哈哈~
我在家了。。。
回家的滋味真好。
什么烦恼也没有了。
昨天又做了我人生第一次做的事情。
花上了10个小时做的。
做到最后累了，
就在电脑前睡着了呢~！
xD
什么是我人生第一次做的东西呀？
哈哈~
先不说。。。
=]
今天早上很早醒了。
去拜三姑丈。
原来姑丈去世也有1年了。
时间是不是过得很快的呀？
方佛好像几个月前的事而已。
晶玉姐姐看到姑丈的照片还是会哭。。。
=[
她还是放不开姑丈去世时的心情，
跪在姑丈面前，
眼泪一直流。
在那里待了1小时吧，
姑妈和姐姐就回johor了。
而我和妈也回家啦~
在facebook看到了一对对情侣的结婚照~
好幸福，
好羡慕~
好想嫁~
>.<
呵呵~
http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=1611990391545&set=o.120619597998061#!/photo_search.php?oid=120619597998061&view=all
就是这里，
按以上的地址去view所有类型的婚纱照吧~
个人喜欢这个，

她手上拿着叮当耶~
好幸福哦~
^^
我以后的婚纱照一定是要漂亮的，
俏皮一点的，
外景的，
还有最重要的是，
看起来很幸福滴~
啊~
真是“恨死隔离”
n.n 真的好羡慕的啦～
我一定要努力减肥，
穿漂亮的婚纱。。。。
＊发梦～～。。。着＊
我知道有人看到我这样写一定在笑的啦～
＋．＋
如无意外，
他就是我未来的老公嘛～
ｘＤ
哈哈～
还有还有，
自己做的ｖｉｄｅｏ
直到你不找我，

i hate seeking for job.

im back, bloggie...
=]
start to finding job again...
>.<"
the feeling is now back...
annoying and irritating...
who can lend me a hand?
so...helpless...
i need suggestion and counseling...
i hate the feeling that walk whole day and get nothing,
i hate the feeling that asking and seeking for job...
is so...urgh~!!!
i will take a rest by going back to hometown tomorrow...
=]
another reason is,
3rd auntie is back...
^^
want to see her and i miss her so much....
=)
wait me...
i will be back on tomorrow.

T.T属于我的故事

突然间今天这篇很想用华文写，
所以就打起华文字来了。
今天整天都在看是否有job offer,
看了整天，
很是累的。。。
到底怎么样的工作才适合我？
有没有有人能告诉我？
我不会忘了我的愿望。
我要赚钱养家。
我要给妈妈钱，
供哥哥读书，
还要每见一次以前疼我的人，
就给他们一次钱花。
-舅舅
-阿姨
-三姑丈*虽然您去世了，可我有能力的话还是会照顾姑妈，给钱她花 =]*
-公公
-当然，还有我的双亲
=）
为了生活好，
我绝对不可以放弃，
不可以怕辛苦的。
^^
我知道，
我可以做到的。
今天也不懂为什么，
我刚去看她profile来，
虽然我没有add她，
可是还是去search了她的名，
按进了她的profile.
她生活也应该很开心吧？
一家3口，
乐也融融。。。
还记得曾几何时，
我多么希望她从美国回来，
从此就跟她生活在一起，
这样就没人可以欺负我了。
每当我被人欺负，
被妈妈打时。。。
我心是这么想的：“妈咪，为什么你还不回来？我在这里好惨啊~”
*小时候是这么想的*
渐渐的日子久了也会绝望。
不再期盼那么多。
不回来就不回来了。
等到我已懂事，
18岁那一年，
才回来那一次有什么用？
我心里已没有她。
没有提起，
也忘了她的存在。
不懂的人都认为我对她是如此的 [绝]
我只可以这么说，
“懂故事的人才懂得我心里的歌~”
好了不提了。
今天例外去看了她的profile,
不会有下次了。

Bukit Merah, Rapunzel

yesterday went to Bukit Merah...
i darkened...
T_T
but i think im better than other,
Darbing, Aaron and Andrew get sun burn,
and Darbing is the most serious...
xD
*dark jor~*
he is suffering right now.
cant sleep at night...
hope he get well soon...
=)
bad luck,
im poor now...
im poor this 2 weeks...
=[
can somebody give me money????
>.<"
im still lack of money....
argh~!!!!!!!!!!
money money money....
...
just came back from Gurney Plaza..
weehee~!
go there for movie actually,
Rapunzel~
<3 <3 <3
Movie review:
-i like the baby Rapunzel, she is so so so~~cute with her big green eyes... ^3^
-beside Rapunzel, i like the chameleon, and the horse too... ^.^ <3
-nice story and i impress that Walt Disney's cartoon is getting improve with their cartoon quality...
in a conclusion,
i like this cartoon...
: ]
thanks Darbing for accompany me to watch this GIRLY cartoon...
xD
* i know he not that like it*
till here then,
sleepy~
-.-Zzzz
bye bye~

job vacancy....

nowadays my blog is full of " im so tired" this sentence...
>.>
yes,
im really tired.
today is tired of being finding job.
start from 10.30 am - 5.30pm.
guess how many hours we had walk, find, and drive?
feel so hard to find myself a suitable job.
any recommendation?
the very first time ahpeng and me walk through the whole Gurney Plaza, Palau Tikus area, Tesco and even Gurney tower,
but what we get?
we get tired,
and the legs so pain...
T.T
HELP~ *S.O.S*
although is just work for temporarily,
but we still search for the good job.
i don't want to force myself to do what i do not like to do,
is useless,
my mood will down and this will affect my attitude toward the job.
so...How?
i know im a bit burden....
+.+
!@#$%^&
i hope i can find a job soon so that i don't have to go back to hometown...
again, *is tired*
peiwen they all had move to Darbing hostel,
xD
we can chit chat all day long~!
^^
last but not least,
tomorrow we going to Bukit Merah~!
=]
yee~pie~!
relax relax relax....
after come back,
continue search for good job....

1st avenue, queensbay, airport. =]

yesterday was a wonderful day~`
haha~!
everyone will said like that~`
xD
haiz~!
many of my fishy die,
and i don't know why....
>.<"
so....
forget about it...
waiting jason to come and we hanging out for our brunch...
after the meal,
we going to 1st avenue...
surprisingly high class,
is like the combination of Gurney Plaza & Queensbay Mall...
*i know someone will fight against from this, because she is a QB mall- maniac*
xD
this is what i can describe...
-more and more shop lots...
-new open Redbox, *is the biggest redbox in Penang if im not mistaken*
-new cinema coming soon *but don't know whether is GSC or not*
-provide viewing platform
-multi-storey car park...*the entrance to shopping mall is so nice*
=D
following day,
we will have more choice to choose for shopping and hanging out with friends...
this is our activities for noon...
come to our activities at night,
we going to Qb mall for no purpose...
*for me*
first time feel so hard to make decision for our dinner...
T.G.I Friday? Dave Deli? Mc. Donald? KFC? Taiwan Moo? Wong Kok? Kenny Roger Roaster? Nippon? Kim Gary?
at last...
we going to Kim Gary...
before that,
we going to Kenny Roger Roaster...
guess what,
we sitting at there almost 15 minutes and no one deliver the menu for us,
even the table also not yet clear...
so what is the point we still sitting at there and wait like a~ STUPID?
we just left and go other place..
Kim Gary is our final choice...
because we must eat before they close...
airport is the next station...
never thought that sit inside the car,
look to the dark sky and wait for the plane for landing can be so excited...
yes,
i never try before,
except sit inside the plane and landing.
the feeling is totally not same at all...
hahaha~!
good experience~!
^^
can have a try next time...
xD

love to-v

huhu~
finally im back to penang...
=]
this morning had go to Darbing house for visit to-v
=)
feel so good that he still remember me...
^^
he is doing well and live happily with Darbing family members...
hmmm~
i think i have to suffering for few days more because of my tongue piercing...
i cannot eat whatever i like to eat,
and,
Darbing not allow also...
>.<
say bye bye to seafood & egg for 1 week...
now my tongue is on the way of recover,
although my pronunciation still a bit lisp...
+。+

good day, good mood

today is a good good day for me...
i slept at 9 something yesterday night...
mom thought that im sick...
in fact,
no...
im so so so tired with no reason...
keep sleeping until today morning...
wow...
after form3 or form 4 until now,
i haven't sleep so early before...
xD
tomorrow going back to penang,
just hope that i can reach butterworth on time just for my to-v...
im so so so miss him...
2 weeks more i did not see him already,
hope he still remember me...
=]

mission complete...

bingo~!
mission complete...
curious about what is my so called "impossible things"?
ya...
i make it this evening...
which is pierce my tongue...

this is my teenage dream...
=]
and wait a minute,
doesn't means that every one who full of pierced ears,
or pierce somewhere special like lips, nose or tongue is bad girl or bad guy...
i'm not~! ok?
this is just a normal things for me as long as that is not too excessive...~!
since form 1 my tongue's hole is "close',
i miss it until now....
=]
never thought that i can become so brave,
walk into the shop and ask for tongue piercing...
tongue piercing processes:
first of all,
i walk into the shop which name Beadzone,
a salesgirl who name Yuki very friendly,
erm ya...
friendly...>.<
ask for my mobile phone number,
and ya,
i give her...
she said when she is free,
can she contact me?
oh...
i said YES....
x]
never meet such people before...
awhhh...
you are too friendly,
and i'm a bit scared....
xD
choosing my favourite tongue's ring.
walk in and sit down...
im scare,
but no point,
i already step into the room...
at the moment,
i think of what Darbing said,
"i don't like"
T^T
feel so sorry to him...
and when the person poke in the ring,
my tear drop....
is like~" holy shit~!"
why am i doing this Fu*king things...
hahaha~!
is PAIN~
lol...
and my tongue keep bleeding...
=[
but this condition did not carry  for long time after i ate green tea ice-cream...
=D
quickly search for it and stop my bleeding...
now my tongue no more pain...
it become normal,
but my pronunciation  a bit weird...
i think should be ok after 3 days...=)
*hope*
if not i have to take it away...
i still remember what reason makes me go for tongue piercing...
is a song name "too lost in you" by sugababes...
the main singer who call mutya,
awhh~
her tongue pierced is so pretty and amazed me...
here you go,
click and watch the video...^^

Last,
sorry Darbing,
i really feel so sorry to you...
i mean it...
sorry...

something impossible

tomorrow im gonna to do something impossible again...
is not about blood donation.
something that Darbing would not allow,
my parent do not like,
and my friends will feel amazing.
i will not write it here if im fail to do so...
sorry to Darbing,
though you are not allow,
but i still feel that,
if i did not do it,
i will regret for whole of my life.
just let me try it...
and maybe,
i do not like it,
i'll take it away,
then it was done...
i will not carry on anymore...
=]
just a try...
^^

betta die...=[

first of all,
i need to say : Rest in peace to my betta
owhhh...
he is gone...
=[
i thought i can save his life by always changing the fresh and clean water for him...
but unfortunately,
he was dead...
im so down...
T^T
any idea, why?
i will not buy other betta anymore...
betta is like goldfish,
so hard to rear...
>.<"
no matter what i do,
no matter how many times i change the water for them,
no use...
it still leave me without any reason...
T___T
bad fishy...
by the way,
we going to The Carnival Water Park on next Wednesday...
=D
haha~!
enjoy Darbing last holiday before he going to his training...
=]
again,
we want play play play and PLAY...
so bad luck we cannot go Sunway Lagoon and Genting with Peiwen them...
no $$$
+(
i need lotsa $$$$ seriously...
hmmm~
one thing i had found out recently,
im a fresh tea and each a cup maniac,
every time i go for it,
i will order my favourite drink- Green milk tea...
or in other way to said that,
im a green milk tea maniac...
=P
feel like cannot live without them...
xD
till here then...
rushing to toilet...
im so....
@.@
need toilet now~!
bye~!

finish exam

wow~!
finished exam ady....
the exam is like....
woah~
>.<
easy...
but im losing 6 marks in the paper.
=[
haha~!
is ok then,
i still can get 80++ marks ...
^^
after come out from the exam,
what appear on my mind is,
"what should i do the next?"
hmmm....
cant explain the feeling...
after that,
we go to CTY again...
xD
we all just like a CTY- maniac...
no point,
i <3 animals....
=D
hiak hiak~
i <3 the golden,
i <3 the fishy~
:D
well,
they still having exam 2morrow,
so we go back early...
continue to play my new version of Super Mario...~!
x]

CTy day

just came back from steam-boat...
argh~
im super duper full now...
>.<
before that,
heading to CTY,
haha`~
guess what,
i bought fish again...
abino red nose fish, tetra, and the ...err...dont know what the fish name,
but they are cute....
<3 <3
^^
now my fish tank is full of my lovely fish....
i love them so much....
=]
aaron plan to buy the lop ear rabbit...
awhhh~
but unfortunately,
they going to training soon and nobody can take care the rabbit,
so he give up the idea...
exam is around the corner,
and i dont even touch the book yet....
T.T
die soon.....

clubbing night

woo~
i cant believe that i go for clubbing last night...
is a sudden decision...
xD
due to too many people in Voodoo and the Mois is still under renovation,
we go to One Club...
when we go in,
is like.....
Holy Sh*t....
no people at all...
>.<
at that moment,
ahpeng and me really DOwn, DoWn , DoWN~
we cannot dance and shout...
argh~!!!
but....
never mind la,
Darbing said will go again on next 2 weeks...
haha
^^
well,
we still staying at there until around 2 something...
=X
so bored...
the 2nd times i feel the club is SO SO bored....
=[
i miss the moment we all clubbing together.
i miss the moment i clubbing every week....
xD
hmmm....
is all over now...
and i promise myself that i wont club every week like b4...
=D

job

this is my last sem,

and im gonna finish this sem soon...

what am i going to do?

im confused...

hotel? 

can i say No to hotel job?

is kinda tired....

rotate shift....

how if the shift no need to rotate?

i think i would rather work at hotel for rest of my life...

this few days,

im looking for a good job...

i know i can find it slowly,

but i don't want to miss any good chance and let go a good job.

something appear in my mind...

is time for me to earn money.

-for support my family,

-ensure that my mom can visit to other countries twice in a year.

-for support my brother in his education life

-for me, myself

i have a dream...

which is,

i hope i can buy anythings i want and without look at the price tag~

xD

just take whatever i like,

then straight away walk to counter and pay for it....

=]

hahaha~

life good if i can behave like that...

x]

no matter how...

10 years for me to fight for my work/ job

after 10 years,

marriage life...

hahaha...

take care my own children as my job...

=]

hope u understANd

如果在你忙的时候捣乱也好。
在你想要睡觉的时候任性的拖你起来陪我聊天也好。
在我明知自己讲错了一句话都死活坚持自己是对的也好。
你都只会笑笑的顺着我说「是是是」和「好好好」。 　

你可以无奈的笑。
可以温柔的摸着我脑袋说「真是拿你没办法 没辙没辙的」。
然后任由我抢走你的工作资料不给你看。
要你陪我看电视。
或是在你最困的时候都用力的用手指撑起你睡眼惺忪的眼睛要你陪我讲讲话。
你都不会嫌我烦嫌我讨厌。
只会用指尖戳戳我因为小小的赌气而鼓起的脸庞，说，「好好好，陪你啦」。 　

那样的话，我就会乖。
会心甘情愿的让你休息或者工作。
不吵不闹然后安静围观。
或许可能还是会不安分的在你周围上蹿下跳还有翻椅爬桌。
但是绝对不会再捣乱。

因为有时候，我想要的，只是你的一点心甘情愿的宠溺。
只要我感觉到了那份心意，就会很满足了。


你可以看穿我的逞强。
你可不可以保护我的脆弱。

不要在我说「没事啦，你去吧」的时候就真的会放心的放开我的手然后留我一个人。
不要在我笑笑的不说话的时候就真的会以为我心里没有觉得疼痛和难过。
不要在我若无其事的忙碌着手头的事的时候就真的会以为我什么影响都没有受到。

我希望你会在我的眼泪掉下以前就用大大的手掌捂住我的眼睛。
然后轻声说我的眼睛只有微笑的时候才是最好看。

我希望你会在我面无表情的时候轻轻的用力的搂紧我。
然后说 你在我的面前永远都不需要伪装坚强。

我希望你会在我受到委屈的时候把我的脑袋按在你的肩膀上。
然后抚着我的头发说没关系就算所有的人都不相信你 你都还有我。


我要嫁的那个人
♥ 不一定要是高高瘦瘦的。但是一定要干干净净。
♥ 不一定要会甜言蜜语。但是一定要有好的脾气。
♥ 不一定要帅气又多金。但是一定要有聪明的头脑和上进心。
♥ 一定会从我们牵手那刻起。对我说 :''宝贝从今天起。我们有福同享有难我当。''
♥ 一定要霸道些。他会对我说:''宝贝我认定你了就赖你了你就是我一个人的我不许别人走近你。''　
♥ 一定会支持我减肥。却依然带我去超市给我买很多好吃的。然后说:''宝贝吃吧。不管你多胖我都要你。 ''
♥ 一定会在过马路的时候牵着我的手。对我说:''宝贝要跟我走。''
♥ 一定会明白老婆是用来疼的。而且会吹着快乐的口哨和我一起做家务。
♥ 一定会在我生气的时候耐心的哄着。然后逗我说:''宝贝你生气的样子好丑。 ''
♥ 一定会在我哭的时候为我擦眼泪。然后告诉我:''宝贝乖。不哭。有我在呢。''
♥ 一定会在我累的时候。伸出手臂。很心疼的说宝贝抱抱
♥ 一定会在睡觉前跟我说:''宝贝你要早点睡觉。晚安。''　
♥ 一定会把我带回家。对他妈说:''看。这是我给你找的儿媳妇。''然后对我说:''这是咱妈。''
♥ 一定会在某一个阳光明媚的日子。顶着一片湛蓝的天。笑着对我说''宝贝我们该有个家了''

pet pet...=)

=]
today is a happy day for me...
^^
haha~'
6 of us went to CTY yesterday.
*jiayi, peiwen, soofong, jason, Darbing and me*
guess what,
i buy 20++ neon tetra fish...
woah~
they look brilliant under the LED light...
<3 <3
*fishy fishy~*
i love CTY's fish so muchxx~
but i spend too much for it...
>.<"
jason, Darbing and soofong bought the red ear turtles...
xD
haha~
is cute when saw them swimming inside the fish tank...
im so in love with rearing all these fish...
sometime when im unhappy, confuse or something i cant make it understand,
i will look at them,
then i feel relax...
they makes my mind clear.
settle and handle what i cannot do.
=)
thanks to fishy fishy~
^3^
after CTY,
we going to US pizza having our dinner...
:]
*yummmy*~
once back to hostel,
we quickly move and clear all the things.
put the new buy fish tank on the table.
this tank is specially for the Snake San...
+.+
jason, Darbing and aaron beloved...
-,- *faint*
i hate snake though..
but i will try communicate with him, and accept him...
x]
now,
our hostel is just like an aquarium...
my so call "marine life"~
=]
we have snake, betta fish, neon tetra fish, and turtles...
but before this,
we still have the puppy name V-to...
but now...
haiz...
never mind,
i still have fishy fishy~
^^
im pisces,
thats why i like fish so much...
=3
oh ya,
i will save some money to buy another small fish tank,
is for saltwater fish...
hiak hiak hiak...
i plan to rear the small Nemo and Dolly~
*i just know the name from Finding Nemo, the actual name not really know* =X
wakakakaka~
and i hope i can get it as soon as possible.
=D

 the big tank for Snake San....  :X

 haha...Darbing's turtle,- tuo pui *fatty*, i name it...

 my fish tank...=] neon tetra fish...

secondary school memories

due to nothing to do,
so i clean my room yesterday...
i found my memories again...
=]
is my secondary school photos, magazines and even my diary...
haha...
when i read my diary,
i feel shame...
how childish am i at that time...
plan to bring this diary back to penang for "someone" to read,
xD
he sure laugh at me...
the precious photos...
4 of us...
awhhh~
i miss the moment so much.
my secondary school life keep shine and colourful because of them...
they brought me a lot of fun...
-we tuition together
-we scolded by the teacher together
-we make fun of people together
-we eat, sleep, play together,
whatever we do,
we are TOGETHER...
this is my “sworn followers”...
=]
we have owned school life with each others...
till now,
i still never forget them...my friends.
i love you...
how are you,
-5B classmate?
-5A classmate?
-sinyin
-shean wei
-zi xuan
-chunxian
-disted HBM coursemate?
^^
no matter how,
i miss you all...

year 2007, Sport Practicing Day











my memories....=) *diary and photo album*

hometown =]

back to hometown this morning...
=]
back with ahpeng...
xD
today journey wont be bored,
as ahpeng and me always laugh at people..
x)
haha~
we chit-chat,
laughing inside the car...
on the contrary,
the first time i feel that the journey back to home can be so short while someone is accompany me.
bad news i know recently,
-a part of my hometown is flooding....
i hope this condition is under control...
though i love raining day,
but i hope is not now,
not in this condition.
mom said this incident will getting serious...
@.@
please no more flood...
i wish......
oh ya...
ah peng and me talk about last year.
haha..
last year 30 OCT,-holloween
what had happened and now...
is 5 Nov 2010
how fast the time pass by...
but for us,
it just like yesterday...
because what actually happened,
we still remember.
is vivid...
:)
i appreciate what im having now...
SATISFIED...
^^

and i LOVE the one who mean a lot to me...-Darbing

haha~new blog skin...

feel good about this blog template,
isn't it?
haha~
i spend the whole morning to design it...
=]
6 hours...
i like it muchxx
=)
the font,
the page,
and the background music too...
^^
by the way,
yesterday visit to GSC cinema for movie.
" life as we know it "
is a comedy movie,
*for me*
huahaha...
is really funny and nice~!
movie review:
-nice
-love the baby girl who name Sophie *she is cute*
-interesting love story
-*recommended*
until the end of the movie,
the couple celebrate their 1st year anniversary,
just like me and Darbing,
hahaha~!
such a coincidence...
after movie,
is dinner time...
god father again...
>.<"
after back to hostel,
bad mood turn on,
quarrel with him because of an UNIMPORTANT people.
i hate people lying on me,
and there is a secret hide from me almost 1 year.
instantly,
i found myself really very stupid,
the unwillingness keep growing and growing.
until i "explode"~!
yes,
i know i hate the people in that moment!!!
he/she grabbed my everything when i'm weak.
YOU OUGHT TO BE ASHAMED.
forever, i remember the pain in my heart,
forever, i remember how hard i try to comfort myself in my way
forever, i remember i give myself so much of excuse to forgive the people.
forever, i remember how they betray me
forever, i remember how i force myself not to think of it
is a scar in my heart that will never ever recover.
as i said, FOREVER, i remember...
i drunk wine,
though i know i'm sensitive to alcohol.
but,
it will cure my grieved.
so...who care?
again,
i calm down by keep telling myself, "is all over now, and it might be ok~!"

 " Life As We Know It"

1st year anniversary

guess what,
today is our 1st year anniversary...
^^
and we having our celebration by going to redbox last night...
=]
haha~
specially thanks to peiwen, jiayi, jessrine, aaron, jason, andrew and Darbing~!
we make a lot of fun at there...
haha~
the very first time i hear aaron and jason sing,
their sound like...
urrhhhh.....
don't know what word can use to describe them...
xD
well,
run out my sound with shouting at every song...
duet with darbing also...
=DDD
Darbing,
the song- 很想说 is dedicated to you...
“很想说有你是幸福的，很想说我的心是你的”
i love to sing " need you now" with you...
i need you every moment, everyday...
=3
beside sing-song,
i found that the redbox buffet dinner not bad..
haha~
we took a lot of dessert...~!
*excellen-te~*
still not feel very satisfaction,
because we just sing for 3 hours only.
1 1/2 hours is for eating...
hmmm....
+.+"
is ok,
i think we will have another chance to go next time.
=）
after Redbox,
thought want to go Penang Bowl for bowling,
but there is a tournament,
so is full and we are not allow to go in.
fine then,
andrew suggest to Midland's bowl.
unfortunately,
is CLOSE.DOWN.
>.<"
*bad luck lorrrr~~~*
xD
hmmm~
is time for us to go back...
10 something...
haha~
here it come...
Darbing give me a pleasantly surprised~!
x)
he give me a Doraemon for our anniversary present...
=)
i LOVE it so muchhhXXxx...
this is unexpected...
i love this doraemon since i saw it in S&J,
but is too costly for me,
i don't willing to buy it...
hahah~
and now...
i get it~!
thanks Darbing....
ya...
when i'm on my way to give him his present,
he show me another present again.
woah...
is a GUESS watch...
@_@
*surprising*
i get 2 presents in 1st year anniversary...
hohoho~
thanks again...
i need a watch...
=]
so that i can wish him every festival in early 5 minutes...
^^
Ｉ　ＬＯＶＥ　ＹＯＵ

within this 1 year, im very happy, i love u, Darbing

 dessert in redbox...delicious...=)

 present 1, doraemon *appetizer*

 present 2: Guess watch... *the main course* =]

the Love shape jelly i prepare for him...^^

1st of nov 2010

is 1st of november...
woah~
time really flies...
2 more days is our 1st year ANNIVERSARY...
=]
last year at this time,
we are still sms-ing,
the relationship between us still confuse...
hahaha...
cecilia, me, and him.
no offend,
just want to recall what had happen and verify that TIME really passes in a moment.
-she doubt me
-i down
-she unhappy,
-i sad
-she sms-ing with him
-i keep mum
hahahaha~
but is all over.
and the LOVE STORY between us is this blog.
=)
whatever had happened,
is all inside the blog.
=P
almost 4get to mention our DUMPLING...
xD
is quite success,
but the amount of the dumpling,
is too much...
terrible..
 i make the chocolate dumpling...
hmmm~~
deli-cious....
<3 <3
MY LOVE。。。
because of left too much,
we move the whole pot of dumpling to jiayi & peiwen's hostel...
hahahahaha~
*aaron idea*
after all those work,
i said to Darbing "next time we better go to buy instead of making by ourselves..."
xD
is more easy and i can it whenever i want.
hohoho~!

my life is kinda boring

"my life is kinda boring~"
a part of lyric from the song Secrets
i did not go back to my hometown this week,
as usual,
i visit to Darbing house.
i saw my little thing- To-v
hahaha...
he had grown up a little bit,
and become more hyperactive now...
+.='"
"i don't think so this is a very good idea lorrr~"
*jason tone*
because he run here, run there, run everywhere...
is hard for me to catch him.
hmmm~
staying at Darbing house for 2 days...
well...
honestly,
i get bored easily by sitting at the living room and watching the TV.
forgive me that it has been awhile i did not watching TV,
yawning every 5 minutes...so i fall asleep.
haha~
but,
between this 2 days,
Darbing bring me for the DELIcious food...
ahahaha~
but he warn me by saying " your angular chilitis not yet recover, you cannot eat anything you want to eat~!"
-hokkien mee,
-laksa
-tomyam
-curry mee
hohoho~!
i consider FRESH pearl milkteas is the BEST one~!
it even superb than EACH A CUP...
*i recommend*
Darbing said " finally, this pearl milktea is excellent than the EACH A COCK, yes~!! i hate EACH a COCK"
+.+
Darbing,
i know how you think...
you do not like each a cup is because of i always drink..
xDDD
haha~
later gonna back to Penang..
^^
im soo~~ soooooO~~ happy...
we go back make and cook the DUMPLING...
awwwhhh..
i LOVE dumpling~!!!!
=)

uncivilized ppl

recently,
im tortured by the so call angular cheilitis.
is so pain...
and sometime it makes me feel sad because i cannot eat what i want to eat.
even when drinking, i also feel the painful.
='[
i try to put some salt on it,
but it become more worst.
argghh.....
is kinda sad SaD SAD!~!!!
wake up early in this morning,
realized that,
i really do not like the UNCIVILIZED people,
no mention the name here,
some of my friends will know who am i talking about.
please,
your mum not born you without the brain,
use your "brain" to think,
-after use the things,
please put back where it belongs to,
-and the rubbish,
PLEASE throw into the rubbish bin and not the floor.
-oh ya, ur mum teach you throw the rubbish into the rubbish bin without putting any plastic bag inside?
PLEASE do not tell people that you are from educational family, because you are LYING.
the simple and basic manner you have no practice yet,
and is time for you to go back to the kinder-garden again to relearn.
your behavior lead me to doubt that you DO NOT have hygiene in your mind at all.
but thank god that you move soon.
move in the hostel almost 1 year,
-never sweep or clean the floor,
-never wash the toilet,
excuse me, all of us not your maid, and we are not compulsory to do all the housework, just because we LOVE clean. and you?
finally, you really piss me off~!
i keep tolerate doesn't mean that i wont warn you,
i keep the face for you,
if you do not mind,
i will tear it off~!!!
do not force me to do so,
or else, you will be in serious problem.

 tomorrow having japanese oral test,
wish me luck ya~!
=)

our 1 year anniversary is around the corner...
=DD
next wednesday...
haha~!
from the begining,
plan to go rasa sayang hotel for the excellent buffet,
but then we change to RedBox..
awhhh~~~~
finally i can sing~!!!
hahaha~
redbox,
We're coming...
together with peiwen, jiayi they all~~
I wanna see how Jason Chan Rap the LADY GAGA songs~
xDD
woohoo~~!!!!!
hang out and PlaY plaY pLAY until the max~!!
*lulalalulalalulalulaleh~~**hyper excited now*
before i end up with this post,
im in good mood today,
wish all my HBM coursemate who taking the japanese oral test, GOOD LUCK
=]

miss vto, small accident

although just one week,
but i already adapt the life with Vto around me.
now i back to hostel,
i cant see him and is a bit bored he not around me...
i'll be busy if he is here...
hahaha~!
because he planting his BOMB all around the floor,
and i kill keep scolding and DEFUSE all the BOMB...
=)
never mind,
i will always missing you...
today had met a developer~!
and before that,
haiz...
i bang a small tree when im reverse,
and is quite obvious...
hope my mum didnt realize that...
xD
sis in law plan to buy a condominium at penang...
haha~!
well,
the condo is super duper luxury~
and i know i'll have a chance to live in.
it will complete in 2012 year.
it combine the sea-view and hill-view together in a unit~!
woah~...
and locate at tanjung bungah.
xD
beside this,
sis in law told me that Yeow uncle had buy a unit at The Light~
again....Woah~~~~
hahahaha~
please do not envy me,
*some ppl* x)
i will live in the unit though is not belong to me.
but,
who care~?
hahaha~
as long as i got the chance to experience the life at there and without paying any money~!
xD
SO HAPPY...
waiting the day to come.


here is the video about the Suria Condo that sis in law plan to buy,
http://www.bolton.com.my/bolton/templates/north_surin.aspx


here is the video of The Light,
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3vRPnwgENZQ

Vto -> To-V

this morning had visited to Darbing house~
=)
meet my little thing- Vto
when i saw him,
feel like want to hug him,
but unfortunately,
he is too small to hug....
>.<"
oh ya...
Darbing's mother had name him another name,
which is To-V
is rotate from the original name Vto
i still not get use to it by always calling him Vto..
=(
he seems like cannot recognize me,
he no longer want to play with me~
T_T
bad puppy...
but never mind,
i will still go visit you every weekend.
beside this,
im so happy to see that every family members of Darbing hug him much~
=]
after visit to Darbing house,
we back Penang together.
^^
oh ya....
i don't know who had visit my blog,
the pageview for yesterday is 44...
well,
as long as is visit but not barking at here,
i'm always welcoming...
=)

找個把你當寶の人，你才會幸福

把你当宝的人

他时刻都在想你

他会随时发个短信问问你

把你当宝的人

他会任何电话都在你当面接打

并且不会说“这不方便”等等的话

把你当宝的人

他不会嫌弃你的身材

总是叮嘱你要多吃点

即使胖胖的

也是他的宝贝

把你当宝的人

不会说你不够漂漂

然后手机里存满你的照片

而不是其她MM

把你当宝的人

他会很紧张你是否受到伤害

把你当宝的人

他会让你随时开心

而不是明明在恋爱

却总是感到寂寞

把你当宝的人

他会因为你困难時找他而高兴

而不会觉得这时麻烦

把你当宝的人

他会在你冲他发脾气后依然说和你在一起很幸福

把你当宝的人

他会把你的任何事都当作自己的事情并且处理的很好

把你当宝的人

他不会觉得你很麻烦或者笨笨的

他总是认为你是最棒的

并且总是在夸奖你

把你当宝的人

会认真的记得他说过的话

把你当宝的人

会在你批评他的时侯

甚至以后也在检讨自己

而不是觉得你是在找事

你当宝的人

会对你放心

但是却时时关心

把你当宝的人

不会让你觉得寂寞和孤单

不会让你不开心

不会惹你生气

不会让你猜忌

不会对你发脾氣

把你当宝的人

绝对不会因为任何事让你伤心落泪

把你当宝的人

绝对不会让你随时觉得自己是一个人…… 

if Darbing can treat me like this....

hahahaha~

how happy im going to be~

bore saturday~

im home~
=)
erm~
i mean im at my hometown.
^^
had sent Vto to Darbing house~
hope he can get use to it...
wake up early in the morning,
because i had promise my mum will go out with her and take my lovely grandpa for breakfast.
fortunately,
my grandpa still healthy and happy,
but he looks more old than before.
whatever,
i still love you...
=]
after the breakfast,
i take mum together with my little niece to tesco.
i hate tesco by the way~
*i mean alor star's tesco*
shop around 30 minutes then we back home...
is very tired since last nite i did not sleep well...
till here then~
8181~

Movie's Day- The Child's Eyes

watched a movie yesterday~xD
this is a movie that someone promise me to watch with me together.
and he fulfill his promise...
^^
ok, now is time for me to review the movie's story, -The Child's Eyes
- Why name it as "the child's eyes"? should name it as Karma. *im not the director, so it just a suggestion*
- Normal ghost story, but a bit scary
- The ending is really....WOAh~~~ bad ending
- The movie did not state about how the ghost catch the little girl who name Man Man and her other friends
- Why the man want to shout out loud before they accident? *not even show a ghost there, but his face seems like very scare*
hmmmm....
rating for this movie is just 3...***
after the movie,
we walk around the Gurney Plaza as Darbing they all want to seek for the christmas's stuff...
=D
feel like want to go Redbox...
X_X
it had been awhile i did not step into there.
i wanna SING SING SING and SING
>.<"
friends, when you all want to SING?
after shopping,
we go for our dinner,
and they name the place as God Father...
hahaha`!
kinda funny name...
after having our dinner,
Darbing and me rush back to hostel to feed our little thing- Vto
although he is just 6 weeks,
but when we back,
he know how to welcome us.
=)
how clever he are...
^^

happy birthday to Peng~! =)

last night was a crazy night...
hahaha...
is ahpeng's birthday...
^^
peng, happy birthday to you ya~!
i love you...
=]
i waiting so long at the hostel.
and finally zui and feimic are here...
thank guan yim ma~
xD
but they come at the wrong time.
they come at the time when i'm inside the toilet and doing the "big business"
i had force to stop my business and rushing down to go to the birthday party's location.
im so SAD....  ='[
when we reach there,
i saw my friends~
hohohohoho~
i love them, synnya, sinxi and the V.I.P (ahpeng)
we sit down and starting to eat...
is been awhile i did not eat steamboat...
so happy to see all the round round things in front of me,
fishballs~ <3
n.n
we chatting, eating, taking photos at there.
so so so so so~~~happpppyyyy~
=D
we end up with~ everyone is complaint about they are too full...
hahahaha~!
is kinda funny when saw their face.
10 somethings,
dismissed and we go back.
cannot sleep in the middle of the night.
the weather is too hot for me...
>.<"
one wish before i sleep,
raining every night until the next morning.
i will be happy because of that...
=3